pins
for a long time now, i've felt that the only real way i could see my soul reflected back to me is through pinterest pins. this is what i mean:
I've never been a drinker. this is something i pride myself in, the ability to hold back from common substances. I don't have fun drunk, i don't soothe my mind with liquor, i don't calm myself with puffs of smoke. I really would rather to be a kid, drinking hot cocoa, eating cookies, lemond pound cakes, sitting with my anxiety and never doing anything to soothe it, ever. I can breathe. I can raw dog it. I can just endure it, until i become desensitized to my own suffering. It's my baseline emotion. A kid at heart.
